So remember the Best Weekend Ever 2008...

Well I finally got some closure to find out about the circumstances that made me have such a negative memory of the best night of my life. I am not sure if I posted about it before, so I will give you the short version and no there is no sex in it...lol

So, the last weekend of February last year was extended for me as usual due to a friend I was dating came into town, plus Catholic closed for a snow day and I had a busy weekend schedule anyway. Well, Friday night, me and Meesh the Luva went looking for trouble at LOVE, I was wearing my weekend hair...it feels so silly saying that and we had a blast as usual. We left the club early, went to IHOP and leaving the restaurant I met this guy. He seemed pretty nice, he called me when I got home that night and we made plans to go out the next day. So, the next day was my goddaughter's 4th bday and it was a busy day, but we went to Jaspers and had a blast. I didn't end up going out until like midnight that night, but I mean I had a blast. I don't think I danced that hard in a minute, plus my date was very handsome in a Trey Songz kinda way. :) We partied there and at another place and my friend joined us, along with some of his friends and we just kinda hung out, No funny business. he was a pure gentleman, very attentive and all of that. Got home at sunrise...and he never called. :(

For the life of me I could not understand why, but I found out why last night and I didn't have to ask. Last night, me and lil sis decided to hang for a lil while at the same spot, her suggestion, and when I walked in, he was right there. He waved me over and he explained that he had another baby and he found out not long after we hung out. Of course he added that they are not together, but when a guy has kids by a lady...how broken up can they really be? And although I feel some kinda way about the situation, I guess it's better that we never got too close. He has facial hair now, so he is definitely not as cute as he used to be, I'm not just saying that tho either... I am gonna be a good girl.

Anyway, I am excited abt V-Day even tho nothing is set in stone yet...but the Super Bowl party comes first. :) I have to finish the invites for that and I am expecting a decent crowd..we'll see what happens tho...

Luv Always :)

It's the weekend...

Great morning all...it's the weekend, Saturday morning to be exact. I have actually been off since Friday, but I just ran errands all day yesterday. I am having a Super Bowl party and call it a lil frivolous, but I am doing some redecorating to get ready for it. Both of my tvs are kinda old, so I think it is time too replace them. I am also about to redo part of my bedroom because things keep breaking and it is making everything else look bad. I have been here for three years, furnished completely for almost two, so it's a good time.

I went to see my financial planner yesterday, she told me to take my new phone back. I had to stand my ground b/c I have had my other phone for almost two years and it was falling apart. Plus, I did want a refurb, but there were no more available online, so I had to get it in the store. I mean my antenna was falling off, I was so embarrassed to even use it. I have a lot of homework to submit to her and I will probably be staying in my apartment for a tad bit longer than I expected because she wants me to make sure I have three to six months in my emergency fund plus be able to tithe regularly which is something that I always wanted to do, but other things seem to get in the way.

I have a dentist appointment this morning, I swear I would just get these teeth knocked out and fake ones put in, if I could, but I have to deal with what I have for now. At least my dentist is cute. I have also been at the gym everyday since Tuesday and haven't been eating too bad, but I think my stomach is already starting to discern bad food from good food which is always a plus. Today is a very busy day and I may be doing homework for a lot of it, b/c I have something due 2moro that could take a while... but we'll see what happens tho...


Luv Always :)

My President is Black...

That is what my blog is supposed to be about right, because I am so proud to be an America especially today of all days. Well, I am and I think The Obamas definitely serve as an inspiration to me, but their reality is very far from mine. True story, the day after the election, I was talking to my old boss and she said that if we can get a black president, then we can get me married too. I guess if it was coming from anyone else but maybe five other people, I might have gotten offended, but Shan KNOWS me very well.

It's not to say that I am some "pimp" or "mack mama"... or a chyck that keeps a lot of guys, but I am extremely choosy and when I don't get the attention that I want, someone else would be implemented to pick up the slack. I am 1000% sure that my choosiness is the reason that I am single because I am know what being smitten with someone feels like and it's just something that I respect MOST guys to much to fake. I don't even feel comfortable asking for money unless it a dire circumstance, especially if it is someone that I am just dating. Everyone has a the fairy tale of helping someone on the "come up" but what happens when the person never makes it up. Often times, you have lowered yourself to deal with their circumstances and time has been wasted. Time is the one thing in our lives that we can NEVER get back. That very concept reminds me that the problem is not with ME, it's everyone else b/c I have dealt with quite a few guys who thought it was OK to ask me for money. It was an instant turn-off and I reluctantly severed a few ties. The currency itself means nothing to me, but the principles that govern it's treatment mean everything, especially when it involves it leaving my pocket.

Once MR RIGHT finds me, things will be different b/c I will KNOW who he is by the way that he treats me. He will start building a foundation for our future from DAY ONE and give as selflessly as I once did. Sadly, he will also have a lot of reconstruction to do as far as my emotions go, b/c I am more than a little off when it comes to my feelings and expressing them. Anyway, this is not a love blog...so moving right along.

It's interesting how GOD will send someone your way. I will not lie, the thought of gastric bypass surgery has crossed my mind more than a few times the last few days especially since I actually saw that I look like in numbers, but today it's just not acceptable. I talked to a young lady at work today who had the surgery and it turned her life upside down. She can't eat meat, dairy or sugar of any kind and is in quite a bit of pain. I know that it doesn't happen to everyone but just the thought of that being a possibility is just not a risk that I am willing to take. And when I plateau and the scale refuses to move down any further, I will seek more assistance b/c going under the knife any more than I have to is no longer able to entertained in my mind.

I broke a nail on Sunday night and decided to remove them all, so I had to go and get a manicure first thing on Monday morning. It's some color that is way too red in my opinion called Drastic, but everyone else seems to like it. So, I guess it is ok. I am pleased with the way that my natural nails look and will probably continue to keep them painted as long as my finances allow. We'll see what happens tho....


Luv Always :)

Matchmaking...

I missed church this morning but while laying in the bed, I caught a show called the "Millionaire Matchmaker" on Bravo. It's follows a lady and her staff that matches up men that are millionaires. Now, there were some attractive ladies on the show and it may just have been due to the fact that they were in California, but I noticed that they were all extremely thin and pretty much looked the same. Well, the wheels in my head started turning and I am wondering if maybe this may be something that might be an interesting endeavor for me to undertake. However, there are a few things that I have to get worked out.

First, I am a woman of size, I will be one probably until the day I die unless something drastic happens. So, my first thought is to cater to people like myself, but here is the problem. I don't like "big guys" and I know a bunch of my counterparts that don't either. Another thing is coming up with criteria that people have to meet in order to qualify in a way that makes it non-discriminatory. For example, I don't want the service to be used for casual hook-ups or booty calls, I want it to breed romance and love. And the last most important thing is that it has to stand out, so what will make it different from other services. When I put "Match-making" into to google, sites like e-harmony, some elite dc service and other dating sites popped up. So, I will pitch it to my partners and see what they think. While being out and about, I meet and strike up conversations with so many people that it's not even funny. It's a recession. Love is all that some people have to give....maybe we can help. We'll see what happens tho...

So, I hit the gym yesterday again and I was on a mission. The cold has my left leg a little weak and achy, but I still plan on hitting the gym again today. If I can do four days straight, then I can set the momentum for some major fat-burning, so I definitely need to get my play list together. It's really not a game out here...LOL. Also, I did receive a referral for a potential personal trainer, so I am waiting to hear back from her. I want another tattoo and my fave artist will be in town the week after next...maybe my back will get started if he is not already booked up, which is highly unlikely. We'll see what happens tho....

Luv Always :)

Luv Always

The Moment of Truth...

First off, let me give a little bit of history. I have always been overweight since childhood.I had surgery when I was 10 and the doctor told me that I had to be basically immobile for a summer and my weight skyrocketed. However, I found peace when I went to college until I had started having to take steroids to deal with my athsma which was off the chain b/c of the thinner air up there.

So anyway, I don't know WHAT happened between last February and this year b/c I definitely was not expecting to see what I saw yesterday. I don't know if maybe I was living in a bubble or in denial...but I am really not pleased with my physical appearance right now and I HAVE to come up with a course of action. So now I am on the search for a personal trainer because it's obvious that without personal attention, it's just not going to happen...especially after the first plateau. I don't even have a goal at this point either, I just know that things have to change.

Luckily, I was jy like prepared anyway b/c I don't keep junk food, soda or any of that in the house. I have very little juice and the only sweets in my house now are cake from my dad's bday, some cupcakes I baked last week and probably ate two if that, and some ice cream cups from the party the other night. The ice cream I may keep, but I won't touch it until it gets warmer outside b/c these temperatures in the teens and my breathing don't mix.

Another good thing is that I haven't had much of an appetite lately, so as long as I can make sure I get the things that I am supposed to eat in...I should be in good, in terms of not overeating. Even though I am not happy right now....maybe I will be soon. Any recommendations for a trainer are appreciated. :)

Luv Always :)

Have A Great Day On Purpose....

First things first. Did we ever talk about the title of this here blog? It has been my motto ever since I first heard it on the voice mail of my Mary Kay Director and I thought "it's corny...but it means something." So almost a year later, I have ingrained my that phrase into my life because when ever something is done on purpose that means you mean it, right? Maybe there's even a book in the works but I have to wait for it to be laid upon my heart.

Today's my Daddy's 56th (I think) birthday. He's the greatest, too. So, since I know he has a way of finding me wherever I may be online... Luv You Daddy. :)

So, a few interesting things happened since I last blogged, but of course I am only gonna talk abt the ones that matter. So, ONCE again, I failed to see the greatness in something until it was too late. Back in October, I met a dude outside of the hospital , who wasn't normally what I would talk to, but those are always the ones that I like the most. Anyway, I liked him during the time that we talked and then after I had him meet me at Pentagon City one day...he just stopped calling. I could not figure out for the life of me why. It bothered me because he was actually someone that I stepped outside of my usual type and dared to get to know him. So, we ended having a convo via text today and he said that I am too young for him. :( Now, I figured that it had something to do with me acting extra goofy that day which is my norm when I am shopping...but gee. Talk about wanting to push REWIND...

Let me rewind further to me being woke up on my day off by my cousin calling my cell to tell me that she had her four tracks taken out and it pulled her hair out. I wanted to say...them tracks ain't take your hair out, bring stressed about that trifling joint you dealing with got you all stressed, but I am not supposed to know all that. So anyway, I gave her a lil talk abt stress and how it manifests itself in different ways and your hair is one of them. She says she is gonna start taking vitamins...let's see if it works. All I can do is pray for her.

I also hung out with my good friend today, who I have known for the last eleven years. It's funny because although he is the one who taught me how to KISS like a grown up, we have never dated. My older sister dated his brother as did one of my friends from high school also. Anyway, I love him to death but he is a WHORE. Some chyck did him dirty years ago and he's been taking it out ever since. I hope that he heals from it.

I might be back in the gym again soon, partially b/c if I am gonna stop clubbing, I need to be able to see the fine joints somehow... We'll see what happens tho....

Luv Always... :)

The sky is beautiful this morning...

It reminds me of January mornings in Oneonta, when the sun hardly ever came out and it snowed every single day. I love the snow, well the snow up there. It reminded me of everything that was pure and innocent. I never appreciated the time that I spent up there as much as I should have. Well maybe I did..but sometimes I wish that I could back for a about a week or so.

Today is my favorite day of the week because tonight is Tuesday Night Bible Study. I don't care how much hell raising I do the rest of the week. 95% of the time...I am in Bible Study on Tuesday. I am too afraid that I might miss something. We are now doing a series on spirits and how easy it is for them to transfer from person to person or object to person. On my way to work, it was illustrated to me. I was listening to one of my fave songs from back in the day, "Days of Our Lives" by Bone Thugs and Harmony and I suddenly had the urge to smoke. Now, I have never been a smoker, I dabbled in it briefly when I was smitten, but I never had the urge to just smoke. So, I learned something today. And I know it was just GOD trying to show me something, because the thought/urge/desire was only there for about a minute and a half and it was gone as quickly as it crept into my mind.

Anyway, my evening last night did not go as expected, but I did do something that I haven't gotten to do in a long time which was just lay in my bed and watch TV, even though there was nothing on. I miss the two pillows that I threw away and I need to hurry and replace them and get two more because it is hard to get comfortable with only six pillows. I think I want to get back up to eleven. I still haven't put my new white sheets on my bed, I think I may save those for the warmer months. We'll see what happens though.


I feel like I am rambling this morning but so when I went up to Philly a few weeks ago for the wedding, I rode with my friend's "brother" that I hung out with a lil over a year ago. So, I hop in the car and guess what song comes on... "It's Too Soon" by Eric Roberson. I am like "Wow"!!! It would have been like a scene out of a movie or something, but it didn't really set the mood for anything. However, that little occurence would be the beautiful backdrop for a poem or maybe a story...hmmm. We'll see what happens tho...


Luv Always.... :)

What's new boo?

So YAY...it's 2009 and I am 25, as cute as ever, if my I might say so myself you know I will. Let's see what's new. My homie Tasha is married now and expecting...yay Tasha!!! Zoom is working to reach her goals, she doesn't want a 9 to 5, but we'll see what happens. I just celebrated my first year in Mary Kay...not where I am supposed to be yet, but I am still active. :) KJ is moving on up in Pampered Chef, hopefully she will have a baby soon and Beanie is so cute with her boo. She saved my life last night too and coached me through a great dinner.

If this is your first time reading this blog, you will quickly realize that I am all about breeding life and positivity. It has often been quoted that "it takes a village to raise a child" and my village is still forming. I am still growing up at 25 and I have quite a way left to go.

This year's theme at church is "Set Your House In Order" and the first part of that is "Set Your Financial House In Order"...so what does that mean for me? No more splurging. At this point, I don't really NEED anything other maybe a brown pair of boots and flats, but I have been and can definitely continue surviving without. An interesting thing for me to note is that other than "club attire," my closet is actually to my satisfaction at this moment. I probably need to get rid of somethings. Anyway, back to setting my house in order, I definitely won't be forgoing trips to the nail salon, but I can definitely cut back on some of my eating out. There was a financial management group who visited our church yesterday and I got signed up to meet with them. I want to be able to save more and be able to give more to those that I LOVE. Plus, I want out of my apartment as soon as the good LORD sees fit, but of course if I am not ready, I know that he will not give it to me yet.

In terms of dating, I am very "hands off" these days with the exception of a wrong that I am trying to "right." I want to deal with someone who appreciates me for who I am and not just what I can do for them. Most importantly, I want someone who wants to go to church. So, I have to work very hard to alter and direct the energy that I exude more effectively...but who knows?

Luv Always :)